where's my success?

do you ever read great things people are doing and wonder why not me?

why aren't i doing things like that?

why couldn't i have thought of that?

what will it take to get me there?

i've been thinking that way alot lately.

i feel like my creative juice is running low.

burned out? possibly. boredom? mostly.

i've been feeling blue.

my life's ok, but the personal success i crave is not there.

what's with my hair lately? why's it so dark?

oh yeah. i cut poultry out of my diet.

which means i'm down to dairy and seafood.

haven't had beef or pork in 2 years?

that's one thing to be proud about. :/

ugly me

i feel so ugly.

and it seems no matter what anyone says, i feel this way regardless all the time.

every single day.

:(

it's here! it's here!

yay yay yay!

a work in progress.